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  • wondering...

    2008-6-05

    It's time to start another period ?

    I am always muddleheaded.I have wrestled with my inner demons for more than 1 year.Now,I know I have managed to rescued myself.

    So I should and must begin.

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  • So cold

    2007-12-02

       So cold it is! Cold air ,cold wind, cold rain,everywhere and every time.And nobody offer any warm words or any warmness to me.The acquaitances have just graduated this year,while I am still staying in xi'an.Such winter may be about to be much colder than it really is.Therefore, i wonder whether I have made the right choice to stay in this old city.But nobody can tell me.Maybe i don't belong to this city ,this university.As loneliness and chilliness are always welcomed into my world.
           I try to get busy, try to get involved in many activities, and try to cheer up as soon as possible.No immediate results,at last.I think to myself,I am bound to learn to enjoy the solitude during this tough journey.I should be patient.All right? I am an extroverted girl,fond of the jollification surrounding me. Thus I fear being alone ,far from people.Today,I had been in the library the whole day, without anybody saying a word!!It wasn't because I didn't want to talk to others, but nobody would like to talk because they were busy with their studies.At that very moment, i thought of Mundane, who is now in ChongQing.One year ago, just in this season ,and in this library, we both studied here---i learnt Japanese,while she prepared for the Graduate Candidate Test.We talked when we were tired of studying; we encouraged each other when we felt miserable and frustrated; we laughed homeric when she told a joke;we drank Nestle coffee while we felt sleepy......Happy and enriched life ,really!

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  • bury the past

    2007-11-18

      I sorted out all  the letters that he wrote to me years before, with tears and extreme anger. Some things have finally been  known to me ,accidentally and  haply. I  cannot help but admit and accept all the happenings. Looking at the heap of letters , I failed to hold back my tears. All has passed, gone with the wind and time, never coming back. So it's time to burn them, to forget completely, and to begin a new start. What's worse, I even cannot find a place to burn them up.

              In the meantime, I put away the things that's relevant to him. Even though that took all my courage to make such a choice. I felt so tired that I didn't want to talk to this world. At the very moment, i realise i am not so adament and tough as you imagine, do you kown? Ok, you never know that, i think. I have thrown myself to the position of being lovelorn for too long time. I am so ashamed, really.
             I tend to take rest, to drive the stale air out of my life and enjoy the niceness. So ashes to ashes, dust to dust...

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  • Such a season, random thoughts

    2007-11-17

            Love and be loved . Betray and be betrayed . Hate and be hated. 
            Happy and unhappy . Lucky and unluky. Fair and unfair. 
            Such is life. Things are entwined ,in order and out of oder .Even though, we have got to go ahead with it patiently and cautiously .Somethings  are so  vulnerable and fragile that we cannot afford them anyway. 
            Time goes on and on and on and on and on......Autumn gives its way to winter. And the leaves on the trees turn yellow and start to fall down with the cold wind, somewhat bleak and lost. Every time when it comes to the weekend , there are always few people on the campus road. It seems everywhere is empty and frigid. So I am always liking autumn , as it is a harvest and warm season. People can reap a lot from their fields, with pleasure and satisfaction. I come to admire the pleasant atmosphere in that season,far from the depressing and frustrating vision in winter. 
            Therefore, in this kind of season, I begin to miss,after i have missed a lot . Miss a lot of people and things in the university life----my once roommates in A1-515; Mundane , shirbye , fan ,vivi and other friends. Are you ok? well , I am here praying for happiness and luck to all of you. 
            Once I wrote a sentence on my notebook as follows:"Time will cure all". At that time ,I couldn't understand  and believe the meaning of this sentence. But Days ago,  i realised that he appear less and less in my mind.So i become to believe what time can do.And today , i seem to grasp the true meaning of that sentence. Time will facilitate to dilute any strong miss and compose yourself. Right? 
            Time to say goodbye . Time to search for my luck and happiness. Time to imagine.

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  • Ballet Performance

    2007-11-14

         
         Tonight, The Central Ballet Troupe came to our university and gave excellent performance to the whole school. The hall was teeming with people, standing on both sides. Initially, the leader of the troupe introduced the basic conditions of their troupe. Then the performance began with the pleasant music.
         The boys and girls in the troupe were so great . They  kicked ,rotated and collaborated very well. Waves of applause were sent to the them every now and then. Dancing was so difficult for me ,but not for them, I  thought. As they performed so fluently and smoothly ,impressing people with profound aesthetic interest. Audience in the hall were immersed in the nice and wonderful performance and music .During the performance , the troupe leader seemed not to be satisfied with every actor's performance, as one pretty girl didn't stand firm in the ballet performing. However, by and large, they did  excellently.
           Then we had learned that those actors have stayed in the dance school for 7years before they stand on the stage.So those actors are bound to practise very hard after the arena. It's believed that every success is paved with hardships and sweat and tears. And it's really marvellous for them. I came to admire and adore them to some extent , indeed.

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  • It's just my Birthday.

    2007-11-08

         Today was Nov. 8th. My birthday.Well ,it was the first time for me alone to celebrate my birthday.Nothing special happened in the daytime. Had classes , took meals and  went back to my dorm.Then I was here writing my blog.

          In the past half year ,something miserable happened to me indeed. And I couldnot even handle myself at all. Completely out of my expectation ,and then out of my control.But it's said time will cure all ,right? I am better now.As half year has passed before I realised that. Meanwhile i come to become more retarded about my life and surroundings.So bad luck!

          Miss my college life so much ! Miss my old friends so much! There were so many friends around me ,backing me all the time whenever i am in trouble in the past . But now things change. I am alone staying in xi'an...

          I am a person who is liable to recall the past things and people. So i am doomed to experience much before i adjust myself to the new surroundings.

         

         

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  • Cheer up!

    2007-11-06

        I told myself to cheer up, but it seemed useless. It is so difficult, not the same as I had originally thought.Who will give me a hand?

        So tired that I even wouldn't like to talking with this world......

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  • Being dispirited

    2007-11-02

         I  am so ashamed of not updating my blog.Really.And now the weather in xi'an is getting cold ,and my life in this city is coming simply.As time goes by , I come to realise the necessity to learn to how to settle myself in this hectic city.There was once too much complaint in my life, but now it's time to erase them.As it's useless to cry over the spilled milk, right?

         After the National Day,I become an assistant in the so-called "white house" of our school.Life is busier than ever before. Moreover, I decide to continue my Japanese studies .Maybe I have the chance to visit Japan or some other countries one day. It's expecting.These days ,after my classes,I would like to stay in the library with my PC,doing whatever I want to :Searching data,chatting online ,browsing internet and so on and on.

         Actually ,I am not alone. Biscuit, Lilac and Xuan are accompanying me in this painful journey. What I obtained in my college life is precious friendship, even though there are some misunderstanding and quarrels .Ahha, time will paint all the happiness and unhappiness golden ,never fading in the river of time.My boys and girls ,Best wishes for you.

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  • About my recent life.

    2007-10-25

               After the National Day, I have been hanging out . In this old city, after so many things have happened to me, I feel like having a huge rest, even forever!I am so tired and hurt. Even no motivation for me to forge ahead with my life. what to do next ? I have no idea. where is my tomorrow ? I don't know ,either.

          In a word ,my recent life is drab, dull ,boring and flat. I come to become a complete pessimist .Most of my friends try to comfort me ,but I find it's so difficult for me to get my life back to the normal track. I has tried so many times, but failed. Some things and some people have been planted in my mind.They cannot be erased all of a sudden. I need time, energy and enough place to forget them, and then do my utmost to forgive them ,right?

         Thank you for your comforting, my dear friends. It is so lucky to have you as my friends. Life doesn't treat me so badly and cruelly as I originally thought. I will come out of my sadness after some time.

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  • SOS, it is so hot!

    2007-6-28

    Summer is coming.But the weather here is so terrible.So hot that I cannot breahte---the dorm is hot, the air is hot, the street is hot.In the daytime,i would escape and stay in the air-conditioned library;then when the night descends,where can i choose to keep away from such heat?

    However,there are still three years for me to study in Xi'an.Xi'an is actually a wonderfull city with its own history and its special culture.If the weather is not so horrible,I think I would like to settle down.

    Now it is night again.How can I get through it?Oh,SOS!

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